Saturday, February 18, 2012

Never settle for goodbye.

If you just went through a break-up, I think this might give yo ua little hope. It's also an EXTREAMLY cute story.

My 'straight-out-of-a-cheesy-love-story' relationship.
If you guys have read any of my stuff, at all. You'd know I was in a relationship with a guy named Alex.

My first post about him.
The story of us.
The break-up.

When Alex broke up with me I swore to him I wouldn't give up. I told him from day one that he could leave me, tell me he hated me, and run away as much as he wanted but I'd never give up on him. And I kept my promise. I always keep my promises. I knew in the back of my mind he'd never take me back, but I was in love. I knew I couldn't just give up.
Well, after we broke up things fell apart. For both me and him. Then this rumor spread around that he slept with him best friend's girlfriend. (I absolutely abore his best friend's girlfriend.) And that he was trying to sleep with as many girls as possible. And I was on his list. So I blew up on him, almost slapped him across the face. Said some TERRIBLE things to him and told him how I still loved him and how I still cried every night and how I had horrible dreams about us getting back together and I'd wake up in tears. I just spilled EVERYTHING.

Turns out the rumor... wasn't true.
And I threw a bitch fit over nothing.
But that night we ended up talking everything out. What really happemed with him and Emily and why the break-up happened. We both cried, we both let everything out. He told me how he missed me and how crazy it drove him to see me talking to other guys, (May or may not have done that on purpose... umm... nervous laughter haha..)  And we both realized if we had just talked things out when we were still together, we wouldnt have blow up.

And he said he was thinking about asking me back out. But I told him to do it in person.

The next day at school a saw him a billion times, and gave him a long huge hug. I wish I could explain to you in words how much I missed being in his arms like that.

Before my 5th hour, I was saying good-bye to him and I went to kiss him on the cheek. He then kissed me on the lips. And then I went to French.

By the end of the day he hadn't asked me. I hugged him good-bye and he walked out the door. I dropped all my stuff and ran after him, turned him around and kissed him. We stoff there for a second, not saying anything. All I did was whiper 'Please...'. He kissed me and pressed his forhead against mine. He whispered back, 'yes.'

And here we are, we're back together.

I'm not sure if this is going to work. It's gonna be a while before I can trust him and I know I can't give him my all this time. But I hope it does work. I really do.

"If you love something, set it free. If it's yours, it'll come back. If it doesn't, it never truely was yours."

Most pathetic pokemon trainer... ever.

Just saying
I so seriously suck at pokemon crystal.

Everytime I run into a trainer I get the strong urge to sing, "WHY CAN'T WE BE FRIEND?!"

I'm pretty sure a five year old can do 80% better than me at this.

#Pathetic.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

HAHAHAHA, Love? No, love isn't real.

Story time kiddos,
Once apon a time..

There was a girl. Who gave a man everything she had. Put 100% of herself into thier realtionship and feel completely and irreversably in love. He promised to give her the world, always treat her like a princess. He gave her his heart and gave her a ring. PRomises of always being together, having childer and moving out to the country. Promises of never leaving her and promises of always loving her.

Well guess what?
He lied.


And everything she gave him wasn't enough. She was used, lied to, abandoned, cheated.

He left.

Without word, without reason.

Suddenly not a care. He threw away everything she had given him.

And why was that?

Answer: Love isn't real.

Yes class, it's a lie.

Forever ended a little sooner than I thought.
I'm stronger and better than this. I was stupid for ever letting him get to me like that, making me think I was meant for love. I'm not. I knew that but I let him get the best of me anyways. Time to wake up and face it.

I mean, It was such a believable lie..

Does this look fake to you?





It didn't to me.
But it was.
It was always a lie.